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I just got a bunch of work offloaded onto me as the electrical engineer and quasi software developer decided to take on a project manager and liaison role, which in a lot of ways works for me, except that I inherit his work.
Now, the deadline for this stuff is beyond anyone's control. If it doesn't get made, the principal on the project ends up halfway 'round the world with nothing to work with at a critical phase of development. There's nothing we can do to delay the trip, because a bunch of people over there are also counting on things to work.
I have been in these situations before, as I'm sure many of you have. 10 years ago, this was my life, and I lived and breathed this stuff.
But my mental health isn't what it was, and I'm semi-retired because of it. I am not the primary breadwinner in my household because sometimes I can't work and I have to take a month off, and as it as I can't work full time.
Historically, I've worked with clients and on projects where deadlines weren't pressing, and the people I work with are generally pretty relaxed. I've been blessed, and also strategic.
I took this job because it pays well and is interesting work, but I hope I am up for it after all.
Part of the issue is, the PM i mentioned above needs my reassurance emotionally so that he can do his job well. Therefore I'm like I got this. And technically, and timewise I know that all the pieces are there for me to be successful. It just comes down to me being able to put in this amount of work. It's not a motivation issue.
I get overwhelmed really easily these days, and then I can't focus and I get anxiety and panic attacks and generally go off the rails. I have to be careful about stress too, because too much of it, and I'm seeing things that aren't there, and unpleasantness like that.
This is kind of uncharted territory for me. I've had a hard time knowing my limitations because they've changed in recent years pretty dramatically. Lately I've been cautious, maybe to a fault, about taking things on.
So maybe I need this, but it also kind of freaks me out.
To err is human. Fortune favors the monsters.
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Been there. In my earlier free lancing programming days,
I was young, starting a family, going to school and needing the work which I loved.
I burned the candle at both ends for a long time.
However, my quote of the day says it all for me.
Clint Eastwood, "Magnum Force", 1973: "A man gots to know his limitations."
Applies to all of us. So from time to time pace yourself to get a feel for how you are handling things.
If you need to walk, walk, don't run. Protect yourself.
Stay Cool.
"A little time, a little trouble, your better day"
Badfinger
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I dunno,
Based on the work I've seen you do I think you can accomplish anything you put your mind towards. Just go for it. You got this.
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Ditto
"A little time, a little trouble, your better day"
Badfinger
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We are all supporting you.
Just keep checking in when you come up for a breather.
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I always reminded my clients "If you want it bad, you get it bad". "Poor planning on your part does not constitute an emergency for me."
Do what you can.
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Ditto again
"A little time, a little trouble, your better day"
Badfinger
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It must depend on how much the money and reputation mean to you - if you suspect your health will be at risk you should walk away. I say this as a retired deadline dodger.
Never underestimate the power of human stupidity -
RAH
I'm old. I know stuff - JSOP
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#Worldle #329 2/6 (100%)
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https://worldle.teuteuf.fr
knew is was a stan
"A little time, a little trouble, your better day"
Badfinger
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I just got back from watching Violent Night in the movie theatre. I haven't enjoyed a movie this much in a long, long time. It is Die Hard, Home Alone and John Wick rolled into 1 movie.
If you want to do something Christmassy you may want to check it out.
Note that it is extremely funny as well as extremely violent.
Violent Night - Official Trailer - YouTube[^]
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Nothing says peace on Earth and goodwill towards men like a good old fashioned killing spree.
Jeremy Falcon
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You know when you see one of those viral videos of someone getting hit in the nuts by something unexpected and you flinch involuntarily? The movie was filled with moments like that.
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Wordle 546 3/6
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Wordle 546 3/6
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Software rusts. Simon Stephenson, ca 1994. So does this signature. me, 2012
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Wordle 546 4/6
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Wordle 546 4/6
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Wordle 546 3/6
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And a nice little pyramid-and-sun picture to go with it!
"I have no idea what I did, but I'm taking full credit for it." - ThisOldTony
"Common sense is so rare these days, it should be classified as a super power" - Random T-shirt
AntiTwitter: @DalekDave is now a follower!
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Eh ?
Life should not be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well-preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside in a cloud of smoke, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming “Wow! What a Ride!" - Hunter S Thompson - RIP
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He's just pretending that he wasn't flipping us off.
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The yellow sun is rising behind a green pyramid against a cloudy sky.
"I have no idea what I did, but I'm taking full credit for it." - ThisOldTony
"Common sense is so rare these days, it should be classified as a super power" - Random T-shirt
AntiTwitter: @DalekDave is now a follower!
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🟩🟨⬜⬜⬜
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Life should not be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well-preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside in a cloud of smoke, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming “Wow! What a Ride!" - Hunter S Thompson - RIP
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Wordle 546 3/6
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Get me coffee and no one gets hurt!
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Wordle 546 4/6
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"A little time, a little trouble, your better day"
Badfinger
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It's gonna be one of those days...
If you've never heard of Ventoy, it's a utility that lets you boot from a USB thumbdrive, and then presents a menu made up of any number of bootable ISOs you just dump on the drive. You have to format the thumbdrive with it (so it can be made bootable and loads the app that looks for ISOs and builds the menu), but the ISO files themselves aren't touched in any way. So that's besides the point.
I just copied an .ISO file on the thumbdrive, stuck it into a laptop, booted from it and started installing the OS...halfway through it, it complained the image wasn't valid. Sure enough, if I compared SHA256 hashes between my original ISO file and the copy I made on the USB stick, they don't match. Easy enough fix, I'll just re-copy the file and be done with it. For good measure, before wasting my time reinstalling, I'll re-compare the hashes. They still didn't match.
I re-did it a third time, same thing again.
The original ISO file is on ComputerA, and the thumbdrive is in a USB port on ComputerB. I'm copying the file across the LAN and directly onto the USB stick. And I consistently get this mismatched hash.
So I took the USB stick and plugged it directly into ComputerA, and compared the hashes - they finally match (!)...
Why would the extra step of going over the LAN modify the data stream contained within the file? Given I was able to produce an identical copy of the file on the same USB thumbdrive by avoiding the LAN, I can't really blame the drive itself.
This isn't the analog world. Any read/write error should've been detected in transit, and reported by the OS. Yet it remains blissfully unaware the target no longer matches the source. How do you even explain that?
Additional details: ComputerA is an old system that can only do USB2. ComputerB is newer and the USB stick was hooked up to a USB3 port. Surely the difference in transfer speeds can't blindly introduce errors that get ignored?? Otherwise there's no way I could ever trust a transfer of any kind of binary data...
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